Survivor PD
Confessionals => Hercule Poirot => Topic started by: Hercule Poirot on July 26, 2020, 06:12:00 pm
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I'm approaching M. Peralta, because I think eet ees time zat we 'ad an honest discussion about 'ow things are. 'E ees seen as a Jury threat. I am seen as a Jury threat. I think zat we need each other in zis game, and we 'ave to both understand zat if we are to move forward together.
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Keeping M. Kennedy 'appy ees of ze utmost importance. Luckily, Mlle Garcia and M. Grouch 'ave no capital at all zere, and I don't think zey would ever work with 'im.
I think zis ees ze round where I 'ave to draw ze line in ze sand and make my choice, and my choice at ze moment ees to work with M. Briscoe, M. Peralta, M. Kennedy, and Mlle Hopps. I'm even comfortable with blindsiding someone like M. Grouch 'ere. I don't think M. Grouch would be 'appy about zat, but I 'ave to do what I 'ave to do.
I think ze best blindside target ees M. Morningstar, because 'e ees nice and appealing to drag along as a goat. But I'm open to options. Eet 'as to be one of zem.
After zis round, zey will know 'ow things stand. Zey are not going to be 'appy with me, but zat ees ze price I 'ave to pay I think.
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I'm starting to come to terms with my difficulties winning a Jury vote 'ere.
I've kind of played myself into a corner where zis ees going to be a betrayal, but can I 'ope zat people are willing to put ze betrayal aside? I might 'ave to 'ope so.
I'm not even yet sitting in ze end, and I'm a long way away, but I 'ave to be careful with 'ow I approach zis if I want to win.
I think M. Grouch ees my ideal boot 'ere. Zat will sting, but zat will give 'im plenty of time to get over eet and 'e knows 'ow good my game ees more zan anyone, so 'e ees a goos person for me to 'ave on ze Jury. Plus 'e 'as so much dirt on me and will do damage to my spot if 'e does not go.
I think I'm going to push for eet. M. Grouch would be so 'urt if 'e knew, but I'm 'ere to get my 'ands dirty. 'E also literally told me 'e doesn't want to 'ave to face me in ze end.
Of course waiting to see results, 'owever. M. Grouch could always win ze challenge.
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I've made ze mistake of not killing my closest ally with zat first betraying blow before. Eet ees okay if zere ees a way for you to move forward together regardless, but zat ees not ze case 'ere.
Eet ees going to 'urt, more zan almost any vote I 'ave ever cast because I do not usually betray zis soon, but I will do what I 'ave to do.
I fully expect zis vote to be 5-4.
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I don't think I won, but I have such a headache from doing this and at least I got one for every sentence.
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I hope you enjoyed the fakeout of "In Soviet..." making you think "Oh it must be Vietnam!" only for the sentence to continue "...times,".
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Hahahaha, mon amie, I did notice zat. I almost typed Vietnam.
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I'm also trying to figure out what ees to be done about M. Kennedy. 'E ees actually not at all bad at emotional manipulation. Ees eet too dangerous to sit next to 'im at ze end? Or ees eet something I should consider?
I know M. Briscoe wants to go with me, and I'm fine going with 'im. 'E ees clearly a capable player and a bit similar to me, so I worry about us splitting votes, but I think I've tapped into a more emotional space with some of zese voters. Like I think if eet ees M. Briscoe, me, and M. Kennedy, I go in with Mlle Hopps, M. Morningstar, M. Grouch, and Mlle Garcia all leaning in my direction as people who saw much of my game, even if I 'ad to betray some of zem. If people are angry about betrayals, zen I'm probably screwed no matter what, but I 'ave to 'ope zat as long as I 'old myself confidently and explain why zose votes were smart for me, zey will respect eet.
I don't know what ees my ideal endgame, but I do think I should be confident in myself. I don't think I'm dead in ze water in almost any combination, but I will 'ave blood on my 'ands and a lot of explaining to do. But I'm not ze worst at FTC in ze world, and as long as I get zere, I 'ave a chance.
I'm well aware zat I'm thinking way way a'ead. I still do not expect to win zis game, but I'm starting to see ze path. Zere will be some treacherous votes down ze line, though.
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I feel sick answering M. Grouch's strategic PMs now zat I know what might 'ave to 'appen. I think I was in denial about eet prior to now. Man, eet ees going to 'urt to do though, whether I'm voting for 'im or not.
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I floated ze idea of voting M. Grouch to Mlle Hopps, and I think she ees going to run with eet and do ze work. Well she'll try to get M. Peralta to run with eet.
I'm really not used to making such a big betrayal so early in ze game, but eet ees kind of exciting.
I'm going to try to keep everything quiet though, both so M. Grouch does not catch wind and realize my betrayal and also so zat 'opefully no idols are successfully played if 'e some'ow 'as one. I don't really think 'e does, but who knows?
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D'accord, maybe a vote on M. Grouch ees not going to 'appen. I'm worried zat with paranoia about 99 getting targeted, M. Grouch might idol if 'e 'as one, and ze only thing worse zan a pissed-off M. Grouch who I 'ave just blindsided but still 'ave ze numbers over ees a pissed off M. Grouch who just successfully played an idol after I voted for 'im. Zat would be a true nightmare.
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Maybe zere aren't any idols, and I'm just paranoid. Three ees a decent amount for a game of zis size, although one of zem was much more weak. And zere might be an auction or something of ze sort to distribute items yet.
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Maybe I am wrong to be pushing for M. Grouch to go 'ome 'ere, and I'd be better off voting off ze person I 'ave less of a relationship with. But M. Grouch knows me so well, and I really do fear 'is wrath after I pulled a move like zis be'ind 'is back and don't send 'im 'ome. I think ze first stab should be on ze person with ze most dirt on you and who might need ze longer time to get over eet. And I do think 'e should be in a position where despite ze backstab, 'e ees still a gettable Jury vote? Maybe not and 'e will 'ate me for all time, we will 'ave to see. But zere ees enough emotion zere on a deeper level zat I think 'e ees still gettable.
Eet ees just bizarre though, I'm not used to voting for ze person who I like most of ze options.
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I said I was going to betray zis game. Zat was one of my goals. Betray before you get betrayed.
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If I go 'ome like next round after betraying M. Grouch and eet was not via idol, zen I probably made a mistake 'ere because I don't know if 'e would 'ave targeted me? But at ze same time, 'ow could 'e not after I stabbed 'im like zis? Unless I lied to 'im further and damaged zat relationship more. And 'e actually 'as ammunition against me and knows some of my private thoughts.
M. Cohle and M. Morningstar will, in a way, be easier to maintain something with after zis because I am not committed to zem quite as much. Plus zis gives me a chance to do ze work I can't do with M. Grouch, since I don't think zeir Jury votes are a given. M. Grouch ees not a given either, but I don't think any extra time will 'elp in zat department. I'm at my worst with close allies after betraying zem, because I default back to honesty but I can't be fully honest anymore because zey might use eet against me.
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Also maybe eet being public knowledge zat I switched zis vote on to M. Grouch ees not fantastique, but if I frame eet as ze safer idol choice rather zan ze better choice for me personally, zat might not matter as much.
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I really don't know, but he never responded to me after I replied so *aggressive shrugs*
I really don't think there's going to be momentum elsewhere. The only possible vote I can see that they could get any traction maybe with might be Judy and even then, that's not the name going around to any of the people who might consider biting at it. Jake seems set on Lucifer as his counter. Actually though, this round I've had quite a few PMs with Leon and I think without Scruff being around, it's much easier for the two of us to talk. So I'm not nearly as keen on him having to leave soon. It was almost a bit like how we were talking at the start of Narcotics.
Yeah, Rust seems pretty adamantly against Jake atm, and very pro us, which is very good. :)
Yup, he is, it's what I've heard. I don't know why he has such a vendetta against Luci, I really don't. I'm sorry you have to be in this position though, it's never a nice feeling.
I do know that, and I find it endearing <3. And yes, I completely agree. Which I think is why half our conversations are what they are. Cuz sure we want to do things together, but we also want to do things that we think are best for our own individual games, and sometimes those things don't overlap, which is okay. Oh I know it's not loyalty. When you're fighting for someone out of loyalty, it reads different. But again, I think I might have a better sense of you than most as we've always been upfront with each other. You are rather good at it, I did notice ;)
Oh my goodness, M. Grouch ees going to 'ate me so much. I feel so awful. Betray or get betrayed. Betray or get betrayed. Pourquoi do I do zis to myself?
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My stomach ees in knots over zis vote. I'm so scared zat I'm making a mistake. I'm so scared zat something will go wrong and zis could get turned around on me. I'm so scared zat M. Grouch will play an idol. I'm so scared zat I will never get M. Grouch's Jury vote. I'm so scared zat I will go 'ome shortly afterwards and M. Grouch will be furious. 'E 'as admitted zat I am unlikely to get to ze end, so if zis sacrifice gets me zere or close to eet, 'e kind of can't be zat mad? But of course 'umans don't always work zat way.
I'm committed at zis point though. Ze plan ees too far gone for me to go back on eet. I 'ave no problem taking out whoever I 'ave to in order to win. Zis ees earlier zan I am used making a betrayal, but people always say zat final 9 should be 5-4 and final 7 should be 4-3, so we're about to get one of zose. We'll 'ave to see down ze line if we get two.
I'm not sure exactly what my endgame plan ees or where I go from 'ere, but I think I can play up 'ow betrayed M. Grouch probably feels to make me more appealing to take. Zis ees another reason getting rid of M. Grouch ees better. If I kept M. Grouch, 'e 'as such a 'igh opinion of me zat 'e would be telling zem all what a Jury threat I am and 'ow much zey need to take me out, which in turn would make zem less likely to take me to ze end. As eet stands, M. Grouch ees going to be sniped before 'e 'as ze chance to say zay, and I'm not sure zat M. Morningstar, M. Cohle, and Mlle Garcia will see zat as clearly, and certainly will not 'ave as much to use against me.
Even if 'e didn't save 'imself in ze next few rounds, if M. Grouch was around still, 'e could do so much damage to my game. And almost exactly zat 'as 'appened to me before, where I didn't take out my closest ally with ze first stab (at 9, coincidentally) and because of zat, zey were able to use zat against me and even though I successfully killed zem at 8, zey 'ad done so much damage to my game in zat single round zat I was cut right before ze end.
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Really, if I go 'ome maintenant, what a fantastique way to go out. Going out swinging and trying to make a move to position myself for ze end.
I'm still incredibly stressed about zese next two hours 'owever. I'm almost more stressed about ze thought of M. Grouch 'aving an idol played on 'im and what eet would be like 'aving to face 'im after zat zan anything. Because mon Dieu, eet would be 'orrible. Also zat zere ees some sort of secret plot zat I'm not included in, but if zat ees ze case and I survive eet, I think next round will be messy enough zat maybe my threat level will be decreased? I will 'ave a much less linear path to ze end, zat ees for sure. But I do still think I would 'ave a path.
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Oh my god, I feel like such a bad person. Like I can't even respond to M. Grouch and Mlle Garcia right now, I feel so guilty.
M. Grouch just said zat Mlle Garcia, M. Morningstar, and M. Cohle were worried zat maybe I couldn't be relied upon when eet came down to eet, but 'e told 'im zat if eet was in my best interest, I would do eet. And 'e ees right, if I think something ees in my best interest, I will do eet. Which ees why I'm doing zis. Uggh eet ees just painful.
I'm trying to tell M. Grouch 'ow I feel about 'im without blatantly pandering, because I know zat ees gross right before a backstab. But I'm kind of trying to embed my reasons for zis move in a way zat 'e will only realize once 'e reads zem back carefully, if zat makes sense. Nom d’un nom d’un nom, zis game ees so 'ard. I don't think zat people even realize ze internal struggle zat I'm 'aving 'ere. But I know what must be done, and really eet ees too late to change anything even if I wanted to.
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I'm so close to being exposed. I feel eet.
Oh my goodness my 'eart. Zis ees so stressful. But exhilarating in a bizarre way.