My stomach ees in knots over zis vote. I'm so scared zat I'm making a mistake. I'm so scared zat something will go wrong and zis could get turned around on me. I'm so scared zat M. Grouch will play an idol. I'm so scared zat I will never get M. Grouch's Jury vote. I'm so scared zat I will go 'ome shortly afterwards and M. Grouch will be furious. 'E 'as admitted zat I am unlikely to get to ze end, so if zis sacrifice gets me zere or close to eet, 'e kind of can't be zat mad? But of course 'umans don't always work zat way.
I'm committed at zis point though. Ze plan ees too far gone for me to go back on eet. I 'ave no problem taking out whoever I 'ave to in order to win. Zis ees earlier zan I am used making a betrayal, but people always say zat final 9 should be 5-4 and final 7 should be 4-3, so we're about to get one of zose. We'll 'ave to see down ze line if we get two.
I'm not sure exactly what my endgame plan ees or where I go from 'ere, but I think I can play up 'ow betrayed M. Grouch probably feels to make me more appealing to take. Zis ees another reason getting rid of M. Grouch ees better. If I kept M. Grouch, 'e 'as such a 'igh opinion of me zat 'e would be telling zem all what a Jury threat I am and 'ow much zey need to take me out, which in turn would make zem less likely to take me to ze end. As eet stands, M. Grouch ees going to be sniped before 'e 'as ze chance to say zay, and I'm not sure zat M. Morningstar, M. Cohle, and Mlle Garcia will see zat as clearly, and certainly will not 'ave as much to use against me.
Even if 'e didn't save 'imself in ze next few rounds, if M. Grouch was around still, 'e could do so much damage to my game. And almost exactly zat 'as 'appened to me before, where I didn't take out my closest ally with ze first stab (at 9, coincidentally) and because of zat, zey were able to use zat against me and even though I successfully killed zem at 8, zey 'ad done so much damage to my game in zat single round zat I was cut right before ze end.