So I didn't write a confessional last night, I guess I should do one tonight.
Scruff went home, which is kind of what I wanted, I just needed it to happen in a way that Jake and Leon didn't feel too burned, and I think we accomplished that?
So revisiting the merge TC, I still don't totally know what happened. I still feel like Scruff had at best resigned himself early to losing Jake, and maybe sincerely thought the votes were going that way, but I also think he saw a good path forward for himself with Jake out of the picture so he didn't mind it at all. Honestly, I got kind of heated in our PMs, I strongly implied I didn't buy his story at all (basically outright said it), and also it was telling that in his response, he basically tried to throw Jake under the bus talking about how Jake didn't value me, I was the fourth to the trio of Scruff, Jake, and Leon (which I suspected from the start), I was just a vote to pick up, etc.. I probably was too forward in saying that I knew Scruff and Jake were licking their chops at the prospect of dragging Leon along, but I don't think I was wrong either. Anyway, I eventually apologized for being so heated and he did too but honestly, it was clear that we'd always be mistrustful of each other going forward, which is why I was happy to see him go. I do think this was a misplay on my part; him going still might have been the best result but I burned a bridge unnecessarily and that's entirely on me.
Today's vote was kind of hectic, Jake (along with Scruff) was trying his damnedest to put it on Grouch and Lucifer but while also trying to blame Rust for that push when talking to Grouch/Lucifer? It became apparent that that vote wasn't going to happen, and the supposed other vote was going to be to vote for Rust, but Jake and Scruff's scheming ended up in the vote landing on Scruff, and I'd already implied to several people on the other side that I was okay with a Scruff vote, which probably made it easier to pull off.
Scruff's post in the TC thread was honestly kind of accurate, at least in broad strokes? SVU is strongly together, people should be afraid of us, and everyone who isn't us should probably be teaming up against us, but the thing is that Penelope, Grouch, and Lucifer kind of loathe Jake for understandable reasons, and Jake is with us almost by default (but also he, Poirot, and I are actively working together, so it's more than just default).
If SVU + Jake rides this out, the jury is going to fucking despise us. But hey, they'll have to make someone the winner. I think I have a decent shot? I'm not doing as much as Judy or Poirot, and sitting next to them could be a serious issue for me winning. I think I could probably beat Jake and Leon. We're still a long ways away though, so we'll see.
I realize in the last post I was like "oh no everything is awful" at the end, which was probably dumb in retrospect, I think it was just because I heard just so little directly during that TC, this one went better. I do think there's a danger that I'm not active enough, I feel like other people are having more conversations, and I need to be talking more game? This may be a regret in the end. We'll see.