YoU sHoUlD bE sO pRoUd
On one hand, I get how you're feeling. It sucks, doesn't it? It kinda feels like you may as well have not tried.
But I will say this - it's no sugar coating. I know people who would do damn near anything to make it to the spot you made it to - myself included at times. I've yet to crack the top half of merge, so I'm always happy for those that do.
Besides that, you played AMAZING and I absolutely loved having you here - getting 3rd as a replacement is an incredible achievement! Think about that.