I think I still lose this. I think I actually recovered pretty well tbh. Like, pretty well for what was actually a disaster. I probably did better in this FTC then I did in the times I played a normal game and just got dragged. If I don't win I really hope Shamir does. I admire her so much. She just fucking told me she already got Raphael to promise her his vote because she "Agreed to go to rocks" and to my horror, I utterly forgot to tell him she never would have if she wasn't immune and it was her idea to flip. If she'd wanted him to stay we would have played one of our TWO IDOLS. His question to me was taking a shot at the fact that I said I did gestures but didn't do it for him. I should have said something. Little things like that are why I felt so desperate though, she's so smart.
Groan, memo to self tolerate men even the stinky ones in the future. This is all just... haha it's just nice to go to FTC and not have people immediately asking me why I played such a bad, sheepy, shitty game. They're all just like "So uh Edelgard did you just decide you didn't want to win this one or" and I'm like "Well you know, my motto is when you get to the Final Four. The first thing you should do is look at all mechanics and go. What is the DUMBEST thing you can do right now? Like the absolute worst, most horrible thing. That's what you should do. Royally signed by Wehdelgard von Hresvelg."
ah man I just want to win like one anonymous game is that so much to ask of myself? Next time. Which will NOT be anytime soon I really wanted to take more time after Pantheon but I was weak. I must confess this is probably the worst anonymous identity ive had of all time, if people somehow didn't guess this is me I don't know what I'd think of them. I don't think its good for my sleep schedule to skip the sleep part but I learned that if I'm motivated I can actually like.. not sleep and i will not notice i did not sleep!
