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I don't knyow why im being like this this game but fuck it I'm gonna have fun being all cringe and embarassing and letting parts of me that would cause me shame out because peiple can judge me don't i deserve judgement for being weird and freakish?
I mean, um,MeowYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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It could even be-In post 49, Lady Lambdadelta wrote:
Or it could be me nya!In post 47, Alisae wrote: I can't believe the flavor in the votecounts can be ANYTHING
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I don't really care I think ur awesomeIn post 50, Lady Lambdadelta wrote: I don't knyow why im being like this this game but fuck it I'm gonna have fun being all cringe and embarassing and letting parts of me that would cause me shame out because peiple can judge me don't i deserve judgement for being weird and freakish?
I mean, um,Meow-
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Its more me than anyone else
My brain makes me think standing out and being weird or even being my true self as opposed to a version i can sell a story of are painful. Harmful.
Gets me killed or hurt.
It's my own Brian that strangles my ability to be myself.Yes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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"I may be cringe, but I am free."In post 50, Lady Lambdadelta wrote: I don't knyow why im being like this this game but fuck it I'm gonna have fun being all cringe and embarassing and letting parts of me that would cause me shame out because peiple can judge me don't i deserve judgement for being weird and freakish?
I mean, um,Meow
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Do you knkw how much joy I have denied myself just by being afraid to be hurt and judged? By the agony my parents caused god
I find things that bring me joy but i can only enjoy them in private because shame shame shame shame shame.
Even shit like not being human or orYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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God I feel brokenYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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Qhy am I having an existential crisis in a mafia gameYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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MeowYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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I feel this way about topics I feel like are taboo.In post 58, Lady Lambdadelta wrote: I find things that bring me joy but i can only enjoy them in private because shame shame shame shame shame.
I once accidentally pasted something on my clip board that I would consider taboo and like some people didn't seem to care but there are still some in that community that slander me behind my back and bring that up-
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Ego <3"I would prefer not to." --Herman Melville,Bartleby the Scrivener-
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I feel like a broken person as well but I think we're not all perfect and we're just tryna do our best and at the end of the day we're all people with our own struggles-
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I'd be down to mutually agree to all be gigantic nerds this game.
Personally I think of myself as like, bent but not broken. Damaged yet valuable. It's not true that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, that's kind of problematic it turns out, but it doesn't necessarily make us weaker either.
If you're finding a way to access certain joys now that you haven't let yourself have before, then I am proud of you. <3
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In post 64, Alisae wrote: I feel like a broken person as well but I think we're not all perfect and we're just tryna do our best and at the end of the day we're all people with our own strugglesSpoiler: not game thoughtsYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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my brain screams that this is a trapIn post 65, Here There Be Dragons wrote: I'd be down to mutually agree to all be gigantic nerds this game.
Personally I think of myself as like, bent but not broken. Damaged yet valuable. It's not true that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, that's kind of problematic it turns out, but it doesn't necessarily make us weaker either.
If you're finding a way to access certain joys now that you haven't let yourself have before, then I am proud of you. <3
-cephy
that i'll bear my heart and someone will crush it for having dared to show vulnerability to someone or expose my actual self to harm beyond the layers of my Ego.
but i trust you, ceph. maybe it's some aspect of "i know you in persno and have played board games with you and that joy sticks in my brain and reminds me that this is real and available"
so i'll... try. i really will. i'm scared of slipping back into the shell of my own Ego and not coming out again despite this moment of vulnerability.
like a crack formed to let this all out and by time i wake tomorrow it'll be patched and i'll be alone againYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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Vulnerability is hard. Especially if you've been trained to see it as weakness. I personally feel that that is deeply wrong and being able to trust in that way is actually strength.
Even if tomorrow you don't feel the way you do right now, the moment still happened and still mattered, and perhaps it's a step towards being able to be your authentic self a little more often.
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Who needs mafia, let's just have group therapy. Heh.
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Dear SirCakez,
My selection for anything uPick will be my greatest fantasy. I wish to play as a functioning adult.
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i just hate how closed off and alone i feel so god damned always, afraid of being judged for liking something or being something or expressing earnestly how i am.In post 68, Here There Be Dragons wrote: Vulnerability is hard. Especially if you've been trained to see it as weakness. I personally feel that that is deeply wrong and being able to trust in that way is actually strength.
Even if tomorrow you don't feel the way you do right now, the moment still happened and still mattered, and perhaps it's a step towards being able to be your authentic self a little more often.
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i feel so alone and lost.Yes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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lolIn post 70, Here There Be Dragons wrote: Dear SirCakez,
My selection for anything uPick will be my greatest fantasy. I wish to play as a functioning adult.
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Dear Cephrir,
Please choose something less ridiculous and impossible.Yes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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yeah, sorry for that. didn't mean to make the game all about me and shitIn post 69, Here There Be Dragons wrote: Who needs mafia, let's just have group therapy. Heh.
-cephyYes my Lord, but questions are dangerous, for they have answers.
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I've found it easier to try out liking something in internet spaces and see how it feels. Maybe that's an obvious thing to say. Even despite that it took me a pretty long time to admit to being a furry on MS. I'd like to say I no longer have any shame around that, but I'd be lying. It's something I can only share with Safe People, which usually means other furries.
I dunno if I can solve the alone thing and that is a thing that cuts to my core in some ways. But I do think I can promise to be a Safe Person for liking things or earnestness. Maybe since you've gotten this far you sense that about most of the people here?
Pedit: oh, that post about group therapy wasn't meant to be sarcastic. Apologies if it sounded that way.
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