Nachomamma8 wrote:I'm torn by grief. And call it paranoia, but Equinox... she's not the same anymore. I mean, she seemed to suspect Antihero really badly, you know? But she attacked him because he was being too aggressive, because he was making conspiracy theories up... Then, she JUMPS off him. Like she's afraid of him catching her scum scent, you know? Why else would she decide to back down so quickly? And even when she backed down it seemed fake... She'd... attack him for stretching reasons, then excuse her attack by saying that she was bored. It seems fake, and I can't explain why. And I don't want to believe Equinox did it because... I don't know, things have been chaotic lately, I guess I can't really seperate my feelings like this is a time like this... But I think I... Ugh. I can't say it. I can't explain it.
I didn't get the impression she suspected me. Am I wrong, Equinox?
I like Antihero's heart, I really do. I'm scared, though. He's aggressive, and intimidating...
Could he be overcompensating for guilt he doesn't feel?? But like you said, I'm a xenophobe. This is probably paranoia. Deep down inside... I honestly trust him. I really do. My head says no, my heart says yes. God knows what sense I'm supposed to make of that, right? For now, I follow the heart, as reckless as that may be.
Gandalf's been hiding from me. He's the only one left... I think he killed her. He's lying to us, I can feel it. He must be the one, he has to be.
But these are my thoughts. If I die this night, camn... I'm sorry. But I have to go on, I just have to. I have to fight for you, for Ojanen. I have to find the killers. And I will take your revenge for you. Even if I'm but a cold corpse on the ground... I will go on. For you. For Oj. And maybe, just maybe, someone who feels the same way I do will take my cause on if I die.